I have a pile of notebooks that I have kept over the years. They take me into the nooks and crannies of weird and wonderful thoughts that I held for truth at some point in my life. Some are funny, some are deep. Some are crazy, others are gold. Let’s have a look.
”Career is another word for apné: going deeper and deeper until we drown”
This was clearly a midlife wisdom. In the days when I thought that hard work and smart maneuvering would get me to the top of the heap from where I would be able to see the beckoning beach. The idea being that I would then go that beach and abandon the career. I knew there was a flaw in this thinking but it seemed like a plan anyway. And so, I now know what drowning feels like. One day in a flash of insightI turned around, ran down the heap and found not one beach, but a thousand.
“What matters is the experience of what we do, not what we do”
Experience has always fascinated me. I was an experience junkie. There was a time when my best friends didn’t buy me presents but experience. They would take me to a weird concert, a new bar or on a camping trip. Those were the best gives because, I would preach: you can lose the things you acquire, but never the memories of the things you did. That’s before my mother died of Alzheimer’s and I learned that even treasures we cradle in our heart may be lost.
“Clarity of thought and good decisions live at high altitude”
Sometimes life gets tough, and when it does we have to make a change or risk going under. To make such change, I would be seeking out alternative directions but I would then get stuck trying to work out which the right one was. Invariably, life’s choices lead to loss, one way or the other. But, not choosing is also a choice and so I would go around and around. One day I discovered that going for a long hard hike in the mountains gave me perfect clarity of thought. As I strapped on my boots I would ask myself the life changing question and as I ascended the physical exhaustion would quickly silence me. The sheer beauty of the mountains would then take over and by time I got to the top and took in the view of the mountain ranges and the muddy life down below in the valley, I would know exactly what to do next. I still ascend the mountain regularly. Come to think of it, I have a tricky question to answer…
“Another life is only 24 hours away”
This is one of those weird things about life. One moment you can be down with the dogs wondering if hell is not such a bad place after all when within 24 hours you could be anywhere on the planet contemplating whether to wade into the sea, order another Long Island Ice Tea or enrol for a dive outing tomorrow. And from that leisurely perspective you ask yourself: So why, exactly, would I go home next week?
“The future flows towards us as events that already happened”
Time is a weird thing. Things that happened in the past form a trail that we have followed. It wiggles from crisis to crisis and from joy to joy. The future on the other hand is that black hole in which anything can happen. Or is it? Our trail simply continues into the future and it’s just that we can’t see it yet. But, there are not one thousand parallel lives out there, there is only one trail and I know where it ends. There was a time when I was really curious to know what happens next. Like wanting to know what happens in the next episode of Neighbours or who the dark blonde is that is rumored to be the president’s lover. I have lost all interest in knowing what happens next. It’s just as boring as knowing what you had for breakfast this morning. On the other hand:
“A vision is a memory of the future”
Even though life happens in the moment and I’ve become a real ‘ now’ guy, I still like the vision thing. The best things that ever happened to me, happened to me long before they happened to me. Not because there is some magical power of intention (I checked that out, just to be sure) but because all our choices are informed by the direction we’re looking at. So I look at good things. There is nothing more liberating than looking beyond the horizon. Absolutely everything is possible there and yes, there are lots of beaches with Long Island Ice Teas and dive centers. So when I decide whether to wear a blue tie or a stripy tie, I remember the future first.
“Knock on doors for jobs”
When I was in my twenties, I backpacked to Australia and when I got to Sydney, I ran out of cash. I was an engineer then and prevailing wisdom was that to get a job, you should buy a newspaper, scan the jobs section, write a letter to an employer, get an interview and get lucky. Now I don’t know if I mentioned that I had run out of cash, but I needed a job fast. So I started knocking on doors. I mean literally. I took the Yellow Pages and went from door to door. The first time was scary: “Yes, hi, I’m an engineer and I’m looking for work”. The vast majority of companies had never seen this: an engineer knocking on doors? Some were stupid, like IBM, they told me to get lost. Others were great. At one company a kind lady took me straight to HR and the director asked me what I wanted. When I had finished he said: If I had a job, I would give it to you immediately. He was extremely disappointed that he couldn’t! Ever since, when I need a job, I remind myself that I haven’t tried very hard until I’ve brought up the courage to literally knock on doors.
My note books go on forever. Like many bloggers and writers, I need to write to think. Some notebooks are complete works of philosophy that wouldn’t bear the light of day. Others are accounts of my life and what was bothering me then. There are some real nuggets of wisdom that have served me well in life. So, I’ll leave you with one of the valuable quotes.
“Remember Fred’s fax machine experiment”